I knew him for several years. He asked me if I was sure and I said "can't stop now." I changed my mind when he started to penetrate and moved out of the way. He pulled me back down and tried to penetrate again. We did this about 3 times and then he put his hands above my shoulders. I couldn't get out of the way and I was in shock. I never said no. I cried and he said "I know it hurts, just deal with it".
It was over and 14 yrs later, I still have trust issues. I never pressed charges and I am the one still dealing with the consequences for his actions. I am still afraid of counselling... don't want anyone to know, especially my family. I am still afraid of him finding me, not that I think he would do anything, just that fear. I am not nearly as social as I was. Very hard for me to let people into my life and if they cross me, I can't let it go. I want nothing to do with them. It's not that I think I am so great, it's because I won't let someone hurt me twice. It's really no way to live, because no one is perfect. :(