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I was 16 years old (this year) and i was helping my cousins move into there new house, I saw this guy that was heling them move in to. I was attracted to him at first sit. He was just so cute but the problem was that he was 20. I new that my parents would never go for me going out with him so i didn't say anything to anyone. Well a couple days later my cousin told me that *James liked me to I was so happy.

About 3 days later we hooked up I thought that I was in Love with him I spent every second of every day with him. I lied to my parents and to myself. Well the day came when he presured me into having sex with him, I really didn't want to but i did it anyways to make him happy. We where together for a month before he decided to move back to Utah when he told me i was heartbroken i didn't think that i could ever be with another person. Him and i stayeed together for 3 months after he moved. He came back here just to be with me and i was stupid enouogh to stay with him. I thought that he really did Love me but i guess not.

After i found out from his sister that when he lived in Utah for that 3 months he was cheating on me we got into a huge fight and he told me that it was over i cried for 2 weeks straight. I thought that i could never feel the same way about another guy again. Tell i found that guy that i am with now and he is my own age. I think that younger girls go out with older guys just to feel cool and look cool i really regret going for him and i learned from my mistakes. And i will never again go out with an oled guy they are to immature for me i think i will stick with the guys my own age and stay a teenager for a little while longer.

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Ok, I've never written down this before, but here goes..Right now im almost 16 my birthday is in just 3 weeks, and also the one year of my rape is next ex-best friend and my aunt are the ones that really only know what happened and my brother doesnt know the complete story because i know he will freak out..

ok last year in 1999 i was working at a restaurant as a hostess and these 2 guys came in, and i was thinking hey they're pretty they came up to me to put their name on the list and asked me what my name is, so i told them Beverly, and they went to sit down..after a while one of them started to flirt with me and just talk to me and we had a really nice his friend asked me for my number for Matt( lets just call him Matt )..i told him i was unsure because i knew he was older than me..but i was like oh well, a really nice guy is interested in me so i'll give it to him..

so anyways i gave it to him and the next night i got a call from Matt..he asked if i wanted to hang out so i told him sure..the next day i asked him to meet me down by my community pool because i knew if my mom knew i was going out with someone who could drive she would want to meet him, and i didnt want we went to the mall and had a fun time, he treated me like the most special girl in the world, i felt soo happy and even loved

well, after that we spent many days talking to each other all night on the phone and i trusted him alot, i felt like i would do anything for him and vice versa..probably about a week later or so Matt asked me if i wanted to go out with him on a Friday night to like a party or something and i could bring my best friend along Jamie and he would bring his friend along Mike

so my friend and i went to go meet him at the pool and there was this whole mix up on where to meet but finally an hour later we got then Matt drove to his house for us to hang out and we didnt go to the party, he asked if my friend and I if we wanted a beer, and being afraid of them thinking we were immature or something we told them yes..I only had like half a beer so i was fine but Matt did some heavy drinking

so then we all stopped by my dads house for that night which was an empty apartment because my dad lives w/ his girlfriend to drop our stuff off ( my friend and I's clothes b/c we were sleeping there )and then we planned to go back out..but that didnt happen..Matt went into my dad's room and laid on the bed, i went in there to get him out and i asked him if he wanted help up and then he said do u want help down and i just laughed it off not thinking anything of it, and he kissed me and i was fine with that, but when it started to go further and him trying to take my clothes off i knew it didnt feel right..he put his hands all over my body and tried to push him off but it didnt work, i remember being soo scared i didnt know what to do, u can see what happened from there and he finally passed out and his friend dragged him out..once he left i took a shower because i felt soo dirty and so ashamed

in a way i still feel ashamed, i cant believe i could actually think that someone that is 23 yrs old would be interested in a 15 year old..Jamie and i arent best friends anymore, Mike( Matt's best friend ) did the same thing to my friend, and for some reason we arent friends anymore, i think in a way its too hard for us to look at each other b/c of the painful memories of that night in december..i couldnt keep the secret in any longer so i told a really close aunt of mine and she told me that it was date rape and either i could just forget about it or press charges, and i didnt want to press charges because i wanted to forget about everything..and she told me to stay away from him b/c he would probably think once a fool twice a fool..she really wasnt too comforting through this whole thing and after i told her she never brought it up again..i wanted to tell my mom but i couldnt b/c she over the years has been trying to get through her depression so i didnt want to bring anyth! ing up that would ruin her recovery

thats pretty much my story, i hope any girl that reads this will think twice about going into a relationship with an older guy, i can honestly say it was the biggest mistake i have ever made and one i will never forget or forgive myself for, there is some days that i dont think about it on my good days but others its just hard getting through the day b/c of it..also,i put my friends life in danger and had the same thing happen to her..if anyone reads this i hope this helps u


My story is a bit different than most people's stories because I did escape. I still felt horribly violated and frightened even though I did escape.

My cousin and myself had met this guy at a store while I was using the pay phone. We never did get his name. A few months later me and my cousin were walking down the road and we seen him, he remembered us and stopped and asked us what we were doing. I said "I'm trying to go see my friend Steve because I want to know if he can give my cousin a ride home." he said "Oh well how far is it? If it's too far of a walk to his house I'll bring her home." My cousin said "Ok we'll accept the ride from you, you were cool when we met you last time so sure thing, but my house is really far away" he said it was not a problem with him. My cousin wanted me to come along and I said ok.

We dropped her off at home and then he asked if I wanted to go hang out somewhere with him and a few of his friends he would be meeting in an hour and I said "sure there's nothing better to do." We ended up at his Aunts house, or at least that's who he said lived there, and we went inside, nobody was home. We talked for awhile and he seemed really nice. Then I told him that I needed to be getting home for dinner and I couldn't wait for his friends any longer, he said "ok just let me lock up the house and we'll go out the back door" well the back door was in his aunts room, so I go in first and he blocked my exit to the front door and the back door was blocked off by his aunts bed. I asked him what was going on and he grabbed me and tried to unzip my pants and I punched him in the head four times and picked up the phone, only to find out he had taken it out of the phone jack. I kicked and screamed and yelled and knocked him over the head with the telephone and ran out the door! down the road to my ex boyfriends house.

I still see him around, but it's been months and I have been frightened to tell anyone of what happened. I'm just really glad I escaped.

Mandy Holmes

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