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Well, this happened about 5 months ago. But here it goes.

My best friend was over at my house spending the night (we're both girls). I knew that she was bisexual, but it didn't really bother me because we'd been best friends for awhile, so I didn't really care and I thought she'd ever do anything to me.

But, anyway, we were getting ready to go to bed and all of the sudden she was on top of me, I'm a real skinny person, and she was pretty big. She wouldn't get off of me and she ripped my clothes off. She licked me all over and touched me all over. Then she started fingering me and she ate me out. Then she just got up and went to sleep.

She went home around 10 am the next morning, not saying a word to me. I cried non stop for about 3 weeks. It was my best friend, who'd done this to me. I couldn't understand it. I'm still really emotionally screwed up from this, but things have gotten much better in the past 5 months. I've talked to lots of people who've had the same thing happen. It's really helping me out. Well, thanks for letting me share my story.

Name Withheld


I was raped on new years at a party. I was drunk and stupidly thought I was safe. I was taken into a garage and before I knew what was going on he pulled up my skirt and was eating me out before I could react. I was drunk and going into shock.

Then he flipped me around and raped me in every way. I tried to stop him with words but I he didn't listen and just pushed me down. I was trapped. I did everything I could to get out of there alive. Now I feel guilty that I didn't do more.

What's worse is it made me remember that I have been raped twice before that. When I was a child about eight years old. I was raped then too but I blocked it out for years. I was riding my bike and fell over. This guy came along in a car and offered to take me home and raped me.

I was also raped by two jerks in high school and went to the emergency room for that. I blocked that out as well. I'm very good at forgetting things. Now I know why even though I love men and care about my boyfriend when I have one I balk when he wants to touch me. This isn't something I can share.

Mercy


I had been over at a friends house for the week, and I found out that his parents did not care what happened to us. We played around outside, played games, the usual. I had gone to take a shower in their apartment complex when there was a knock at the door. The complex had only one bathroom, so I (foolishly) let the person in ( I was 8 and so dumb) and got in the shower.

I was taking a hot bath when the lights went out. I reached to get out, because I thought he had bumped the lights, when I found the door was closed. I had left it open, but had no time to think about that as I felt a sharp knife going against my neck. I heard a whisper, saying 'don't move' and I froze he then proceeded to make me take my boxers off (I leave them on when I bath/shower) and he used them to gag me. Then he took a light, and turned it on ( not the main one).

He then told me he would start by 'fingering' me. I didn't know what he meant by that, but I felt a lot of pain in my butt, and it seemed to go inside it as well. When he finished that, the removed the gag and stuck his penis in my mouth (it stunk horribly), telling me to drool on it, and to lick his bag, which I still don't understand why, and after some time he took it out ( thank goodness) and gagged me again.

After a few seconds, I felt another pain in my butt, except it was worse and lasted longer. I could here him moaning about something, but I was in too much pain to understand. After he finished, he got out and told me to come to his room that night, or he would kill me & my family ( I believed him, since I was so dumb) and he left me to finish showering.

I cleaned up all the evidence, even washing up the blood. I went to my friends room and acted like nothing happened [ I found out that my friend had also been attacked]. That night I went over there, and I was raped by him and 2 of his buddies ( repeatedly) until they fell asleep. As I tried to walk out ( staggering) I tripped over one of them. He woke up, took me to a room and forced his penis in my mouth over and over and over until a white, gooey, sticky liquid came out. He made me swallow it. Then he laid on top of my legs so I couldn't escape.

In the morning, they woke up and laughed at the dumb b***** they had f**** and raped me again. They put there penises in my mouth too. One even stuck his 'bag' in there. After they had there fun, they let me go after cleaning me up. I never told anyone, and never will.

Thank You,

Name Withheld


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