My Story | Survivor Stories | Male Survivors | Resources
Safety Tips | Speaking Out | Triggering Media | The Wall
Distractions | Poetry | Guilt and Shame | Anger | Statistics
Physical Aftermath | Emotional Aftermath | Tori Amos
Relationships | Quotations | PTSD | Medications | FAQ
Books | RAINN | Articles | Message Board | Chat Room
Search Engine | Banner Exchange | Link Banners
Guestbook | Email



Survivor Stories

I haven't given my e-mail address, because nobody knows. I live in a very small village.

It was January 5th, and I was walking home from a friends house, when suddenly I heard somebody behind me, coming closer and closer. Suddenly this "man" grabbed me, and threw me on the ground. He said that I wasn't to say anything. He threatened me with a knife. I was very frightened!

He told me to take of my trousers, and I don't know why, but I did!! I don't think I was myself. Because who would take of their trousers, but I didn't think......I mean he had a knife!!, and then he raped me! When he was finished he just left, and said that if I ever told anyone, he would come to kill me.

When I came home, I was on my own. i had a shower to become clean, or try to be clean. I was in there for over one hour!! I went strait to bed, and I've never told anyone. It happened when I was 14 years old, and now almost 5 years later, I'm still afraid of going out at night, or go in to town. I've never had a boyfriend...I'm too scared.

Therefore.....If ANYTHING EVER happens to you, talk to somebody, don't do like I did, because my life sucks, and I don't wish the same for anybody else.

Anne


Hi my name is Sabrina. I am a college student. I was abused all my life by my mother and father, and when I got away from my parents I thought my life would start to get better, but that was not going to happen.

I had to hide so my father would not find me and hurt me. I did everything I could so my dad would not get me again, but I did not do a good job because in June of 1999 my father found me and raped me. I never felt so alone in my whole life. I felt as if I could not talk to anyone about what had happened, because I am 23 years old and my father hurt me. I thought people would say you are old enough to protect yourself from your father, so I kept my mouth closed.

I wish I would have told someone but I was to afraid and ashamed. In Aug I found out I was pregnant. I thought I was going to die when the doctor told me. I just threw up because I knew that the child inside me was my father's, because I had not been sexually active with anyone else. I just wanted to end my life at that point. I could not believe that this was happening to me.

I did not know what to do but I knew I could not have this child so I went home and called Plan Parenthood and made an appointment to have an abortion. I did not want to have the abortion, but I knew I could not have this baby. I was so scared and so alone. Since the abortion I have been feeling really sad and I wish I would have died during the abortion, because I felt so bad. I am a murderer, how could I have done this to another human being? I hated myself and my body and I thought how could anyone love me now because I did a bad thing, and when I didn't even love myself.

I wish I would have told someone after it happened but now I don't think I ever will, because I feel like it is my fault and if I tell I think my father would hurt me again, and I don't want that to happen. I just wish my life could end because I don't have anything to live for anymore, if I can not hide or feel safe what's the point? I wish that I could be ok but I am afraid and alone, and I don't think I would every feel normal again. How could I when my father won't keep his hands off of me?

Thank you for letting me tell my story.

Sabrina
IM: Sminceey2


A guy from my graduate course asked me out for drinks after class one night. We went out and I proceeded to get drunk. We went back to his apartment and I told him that I didn't want to have sex that night. He said no way. He kissed me and things progressed, but he said he didn't want to have sex and I was relieved. I didn't want to have sex and I thought he understood that and respected it.

Well, I wake up that morning to him having sex with me. I didn't see it for what it was, rape. I blamed myself for what happened and, not wanting to have a one night stand, I decide to pursue a "relationship" with this sick individual. After two months of abuse, I finally got out. I met a great guy and we started dating. We are still dealing with trying to get this creep out of our lives, but that is going to take time. Like all survivors, I'm still dealing with a lot of emotions from that experience.

Paulette
IM: peanutbutter_26


Tell your story.


[Page 1 | Page 2 | Page 3 | Page 4 | Page 5 | Page 6 | Page 7 | Page 8 | Page 9 | Page 10 | Page 11 | Page 12 | Page 13 | Page 14 | Page 15 | Page 16 | Page 17 | Page 18 | Page 19 | Page 20 | Page 21 | Page 22 | Page 23 | Page 24 | Page 25 | Page 26 | Page 27 | Page 28 | Page 29 | Page 30 | Page 31 | Page 32 | Page 33 | Page 34 | Page 35 | Page 36 | Page 37 | Page 38 | Page 39 | Page 40 | Page 41 | Page 42 | Page 43 | Page 44 | Page 45 | Page 46 | Page 47 | Page 48 | Page 49 | Page 50 | Page 51 | Page 52 | Page 53 | Page 54 | Page 55 | Page 56 | Page 57 | Page 58 | Page 59 | Page 60 | Page 61 | Page 62 | Page 63 | Page 64 | Page 65 | Page 66 | Page 67 | Page 68 | Page 69 | Page 70 | Page 71 | Page 72 | Page 73 | Page 74 | Page 75 | Page 76 | Page 77 | Page 78 | Page 79 | Page 80 | Page 81 | Page 82 | Page 83 | Page 84 | Page 85 | Page 86 | Page 87 | Page 88 | Page 89 | Page 90 | Page 91 | Page 92 | Page 93 | Page 94 | Page 95 | Page 96 | Page 97 | Page 98 | Page 99 | Page 100 | Page 101 | Page 102 | Page 103 | Page 104 | Page 105 | Page 106 | Page 107 | Page 108 | Page 109 | Page 110 | Page 111 | Page 112 | Page 113 | Page 114 | Page 115 | Page 116 | Page 117 | Page 118 | Page 119 | Page 120 | Page 121 | Page 122 | Page 123 | Page 124 | Page 125 | Page 126 | Page 127 | Page 128 | Page 129 | Page 130 | Page 131 | Page 132 | Page 133 | Page 134 | Page 135 | Page 136 | Page 137 | Page 138 | Page 139 | Page 140 | Page 141 | Page 142 | Page 143 | Page 144 | Page 145 | Page 146 | Page 147 | Page 148 | Page 149 | Page 150 | Page 151 | Page 152 | Page 153 | Page 154 | Page 155 | Page 156 | Page 157 | Page 158 | Page 159 | Page 160 | Page 161 | Page 162 | Page 163 | Page 164 | Page 165 | Page 166 | Page 167 | Page 168 | Page 169 | Page 170 | Page 171 | Page 172 | Page 173 | Page 174 | Page 175 | Page 176 | Page 177 | Page 178 | Page 179 | Page 180 | Page 181 | Page 182 | Page 183 | Page 184 | Page 185 | Page 186 | Page 187]


To view the next page of stories click the image
below or use the links above to select a page.