I've never told anyone this story. I've been reading stories for hours and thought I would share mine, it took me a long time to write this so here it goes.
It happened a couple of months ago, I was walking past a house I go by every day (I was coming back from school). I'm 11 years old and tall for my age (I'm 5'5" and 95 lbs) I keep thinking it's my fault for what happened. I think if I wasn't good looking or if I was wearing something different(I was wearing a red tank top with spaghetti straps and black flared pants that were really tight). Anyway, I would stop in front of this house and pet this dog that was really friendly. This day it's owner was sitting outside on the front stairs. He did this alot so I didn't think anything of it. We would usually say hi and just talk a bit about his dog, he's probably in his late 30's. Anyway, he said he had a puppy inside if I wanted to see it. I said ok and went inside, he led me into a bedroom and told me to have a seat and he would bring the puppy in, I thought this was kinda weird but sat on the bed anyway.
The next thing I know he comes into the room totally naked. This next part is pretty graphic so sorry but I want to tell all the story. He started walking towards me saying how beautiful my hair and eyes are (I had long blonde hair to the middle of my back and blue eyes, I've now cut my hair and dyed it black) as he came towards me I just froze. I couldn't believe it was happening or think what to do. I had never even seen a penis before, let alone an erect one. He stood in front of me his penis right in my face. I started to cry and he made me suck his penis until he came in my mouth. It tasted awful and he made me swallow it. I thought it might be over then but he took off my clothes and started kissing me all over. He then climbed on top of me, he stuck his penis inside of me and it hurt so much. I can't describe the pain it felt like I was being ripped in two. He thrust it in and out really hard and fast, I think he came inside of me.
We layed there for a couple of minutes, it felt like forever, I didn't dare move or say anything. Then he got up, rolled me over onto my stomach and got on top of me. He stuck his penis in my butt and that hurt even more. He rammed it in and out until he came, then he threw me my clothes and told me to get out and that if I ever told anyone he would kill me. I haven't told anyone else but you and don't think I ever will.
I was molested when I was 5 years old by my babysister's 14 year old son named Terry. He was disgusting. He made me pull down my panties while I touched his penis. He use to ask me "Did I know how long we were married" and other stupid questions. I was so innocent then that I really didn't feel uncomfortable because I've never been touched in such a way before or after that.
In fact I blocked it out of my mind for about 8 years. It wasn't until I was watching a talkshow about child molestation that my memory was jarred. To this day I've only told my boyfriend of ten years (I am 28 years old) and he is so loving and sweet. I really feel like I've been blessed; I've never been molested after those few times by anyone and I've never been in an abusive relationship.
I was in kindergarten. My mom's new husband's brother got us off to school. One day he told me that i had a fever and should stay home with him. After my sisters left for school he asked me to rub his neck and back. He told me that i was realy good at it and it was making him sleepy. He went into his bedroom and told me to come here. I got up on the bed and he started rubbing my butt. I took off my underware when he told me to. Pretty soon we were both naked. He told me to put my mouth on his penis. After a few minutes of this he laid me back on the bed and tried to enter me. I am thankful that he did not try to force it. Since this wasn't going his way he made me suck his penis until he came. This was the only time. A couple of days later he was hospitalized and I never saw him again. A few months later my mom divorced his brother.
The next time i was raped i was 11 yrs old. The babysitter's husband offered to take my sister to work for my mom. He asked me if I wanted to ride along. We dropped my sister off at work. On our way back he stopped at the park. He told me that if I did what he wanted I wouldn't get hurt. The only thing he took off of me was my pants. First he licked me. I refused to touch his penis. He laid me back on the car seat and forced himself inside of me. After he was done he told me not to tell and took me home.
Mom guessed something was wrong and took me to the police station the next day. The prosucuting attorny told mom that because she had given me a bath that it would be my word against his. He also didn't think we would win. He got away with his crime while to this day I have a hard time dating. When a guy is interested in me or if I am attracted to a guy I turn around and run in the opposite direction. I hope to solve this problem because I would like to have my own family. I am 35 now and don't trust men.